Week 13

During the season of giving thanks i think of my life and the many things that i have. It is a change from the normal. I normally think of what i have and it is easy to overlook what i already have and what i have gained.  First of i must mention that i am thankful for the simple things that we all take for granted. Things like a roof over my head food on the table running water and clothing. I am also thankful for being alive. We can be gone in an instant and i am thankful for everyday that i get a chance to make something out of my life. These simple things make the core of what i am thankful for, but there are other things that i am also grateful for.

I am grateful to have a job a year ago i went from working at a fast food place to being unemployed. I regained my job there but  i was unhappy with my life. I was fresh out of high school jobless and depressed. But then i got a slightly better paying job and a job that was easier. I am grateful for this job. I am also grateful that i was able to get my hands on a new car this year. After my old car broke me down i had to take the T and i was constantly late. This new car helps me get to were i want whenever i want. I no longer have to walk at 10 am 3 miles to my house. I am grateful for being emotionaly neutral. Although i would love to be happy and fired up about everyday i no longer feel sad, and i am grateful to be in a stable state of mind.

I am grateful to be in good health. I have no medical problems i can run jump throw and dance.
Finally i am grateful to be back in school. The semester has not been a breeze and i still have to work on my focus but I am grateful to have a chance to learn new things and advance in life. I am grateful for this chance to learn skills that will help me acquire a job that i truly love. I will remind myself that i have all these reasons to be thankful whenever i feel things are crashing down on me.

week 12

Story 1: I am a billionaire i live in a giant penthouse my office is like tony starks from iron man. I took a risk in the stock market and it paid off. I am world known for being the smartest investor. I own 90 percent of apple coca cola and Google.  I appear on CNN giving financial advice i have written 5 best selling books and i eat dinner with world leaders. I have 4 kids all whom go to ivy league schools and my wife is a supermodel. I own a penthouse with personal chefs i no longer worry about making it in life because i am one of the worlds most successful persons. Next week i will surpass bill gates for worlds richest man. Although i have immense wealth i also generate wealth for poor countries. I open companies in poor countries and employ over 4 million people in poorer countries. My companies help purify water and install windmills, solar panels and my companies also pump billions of dollars into countries economies. We also plant trees and vegetation to keep earth green. Life is great im rich married to a model and i am making the world a cleaner and safer place to live.

Story 2: The world economy goes down, we plunge into a global depression my stocks go down and i loose my wealth. My companies collapse and at the same time i get slammed with a lawsuit. I loose my company and its assets.  I am left with my last 20,000 dollars in savings and a family of 5 to feed. I go from being a billionaire to another victim of a global meltdown. I shutdown operations and move to the very same fields my company helped to plant. I learn to live of the trees plants and vegetables i planted. The windmills and solar panels still stand i use them to harness energy. The technology i used to purify water still exist's and i use that to get drinking water. With 20 grand i build a log cabin and i manage to live happily from nature. Although i lost my wealth the good work that i did with my wealth still stands. I never expected that the things i built to save other people would one day come to save me.

Story 3:  I become an astronaut i travel to space and become the first human to walk on mars. I bring back to earth the first samples of martial soil and i am hailed around the world as a hero. I meet the men from the first moon mission and salute them. I later learn that i will be going to the moon the first moon mission in over 70 years. When i return from the moon i will bring back a piece of the moons soil i will mix it with earths soil and the martian soil and turn it to a paste. With that paste i will paint a forward pointing arrow on a mural. The arrow will symbolize us as a human species moving forward for the next century and beyond.

I put my guard down and i allow grace to come through
I put down the old rusted shield that has protected me against unknown forces
Grace reaches me a confusing force it is
It rattles my mind and i almost fall to the ground
What is this force what does it want?
It throttles the wind violently back and forth
It fills the air with sand and i cannot see what is in the distance
I cannot see what is behind me
I can only see what is in front of me
I can feel things sink in the quicksand around me but
I can only see solid ground in front of me
Grace is a force of the present
I cannot see the past or the future but i can see what is in the present
Grace is conspiring with the elements of the world
The wind and the sand blocked of the past and the uncertain future
Grace helped me live in the moment for the first time
Grace and  the universe blocked my distractions
And they blocked every wrong path in my way
The only path that is right is the one that is in front of you.
I realize that the universe and its forces conspire to set me on the right path.

week 11

In the future i see myself graduating from college. I see myself going to the world cup i also see myself buying a puppy,being a professional, living life without fear, visiting pyramid, Taking walks along the beach taking a road trip visiting mountains. All while having a smile and eating the best pizza the universe has to offer.

The crystal ball tells a tale of food love and dreams
I see through the mist what the future may be
A crisp morning a bright star that we call the sun shines on me
On the beach i walk with my puppy kicking sand
To the left I see
I see mountains
Green mountains on a tropical morning
as i watch the mountains I sit back and enjoy the best pizza in the world
I shake the crystal ball faster and I see
A future without fear
I travel the world and become a professional
My business is not done in a suit it is done in a weight room
I coach and teach my love for sports to others
The crystal ball sings to me
It sings in a language i cannot understand
But yet i love the harmony
The crystal ball brings peace and warmth i can enjoy forever
as the crystal ball fades i see one more thing
I see life being lived and
Love being loved to the fullest

Week 10

I am really passionate about fitness and health. I love to read articles and books about improving muscle strength. I really love seeing the progress i make from month to month in the weight room.  I also love to run. The feeling that you get while running around the Charles river on a crisp Autumn morning is therapeutic. It reminds us how beautiful life can be. I love taking in the air and watching nature as a pass by the trees the leaves and the gleaming river.

Working as a sports trainer for a very reputable sports team or gym would be a great career. Many people want to be executives,lawyers,lawmen or doctors. But to me those careers would not make me happy. My passion is to help people improve their lives and fitness. If i can coach somebody to better health and sports performance i would be happy. It would be my way of giving back to the world. I would be providing people with skills to live longer stronger fitter lives.  I would be changing the lives of the doctors lawyers and executives.

I would like to work with people who are trying to get into shape. Fitness beginners as they may be called would be the perfect demographic for my service. I would an environment that would not be judgmental or their abilities. I would build self esteem and i would watch my trainees bloom in the weight room. I would love to coach for free to help out kids who are in danger of joining gangs or doing drugs.  I would coach for free for all of those who do not have the money to pay for a coach.

The iron and I like two dance partners
I lead the iron follows
I take a look at the iron before our dance
I become nervous
I take a deep breath and push my chest our
the iron stares at me
shinning the light from the gyms bulb the iron signals
signals that it is time to start our dance
our dance of struggle
loaded with 300 pounds the iron tells me i must start
as i begin our dance and perform my first repetition
i feel my body being anchored to the floor
sweat runs through my face
heat pours from my body
I realize i am dancing with the devil
one repetition is not enough neither is two
nothing satisfies this beast for
the dance does not end until i put the iron back into its rack
and as i rack the weight i realize
the dance with the iron is a trip to hell and back.