Monday, October 14, 2013
Week 6
Currently i am very busy my life has many things going on. Most recently i went to the Red Sox game yesterday. The Red Sox game was my very first play off game and it was great to take in the moment. It was great to look down on the Fenway diamond and breathe in the cool October breeze. I also got my Mobile shirt at my job. Getting the mobile shirt is a big moment for a Best Buy mobile employee. It is the shirt that distincts us from all other employees in the store. I am also talking to new people i have met at my work and at BHCC.
For all the good things that are happening there are also bad things going on. I am currently trying to accept that i have NVLD a learning disability. Reading this weeks lesson has got me thinking about being in denial. I may be in denial and may have to accept that i do have a learning disability and it is part of who i am. It is not a good feeling to learn that you have something called a learning disability. But i am trying to just accept it and not waste energy self loathing.
At this precise moment i feel a bit more calm i tried the bell meditation and it has worked. It has been 40 minutes into this lesson and i am learning to ignored the flood of thoughts that i have. Thoughts that lead me to not get my school work and my job related classes to be finished in time. I am feeling good about myself and i am also feeling happy to be in a new home.
When I stop, I notice... Who I am
When I stop, I notice Who you truly are
When i stop I notice you have been with me my whole life
But i just met you
When I stop i notice I have been ignoring you all along
When I stop I notice you are my greatest gift
When I stop I notice you are my biggest handicap
when I stop I notice you are my downfall
When I stop I notice you have caused agony and pain
When I stop I notice you have been with me like a friend in my moments of pain
When I stop I notice you are a learning disability
You give me handicaps
But you also give me advantages
You push me to the floor
But you pick me up
When I stop I notice that its been 20 years
20 years that I have wasted ignoring you
20 years in denial
But today is the day
When I stop and I notice that you are a part of me and i will always be a part of you
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Good post. It's good to see you back on track.
ReplyDeleteYour journal and poem are honest. Seems like you're ready to move on with some acceptance of your situation. The next lesson may help you go into it even more.
Your writing is good. Solid. I'd like to see you step it up a bit more and expand. Write more. Go nuts. Try to "free write" in each post. Let it go. See what comes out when you just type.
Good poem. I like the rawness of it. The honesty. The awareness. It's powerful.
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